how is everybody?

[hunter]

7. "ok and moving forward" is good. I'm in one of those zones where no good deed goes unpunished.

I guess I'm moving forward too, but the urge to isolate myself is strong. I'm not living in my car or on a relative's sofa yet, which I've done.)

It doesn't help that arthritis, asthma, and the usual shit are making me useless in the morning. I feel like the tin man in need of oil, lying in bed as the sun rises thinking, "damn this is going to hurt to get up," and knowing I should quickly dispose of the nightmares so they won't haunt me.

A handful of strong meds (of all sorts) and big mugs of coffee. My Breakfast of Champions.

Sometime in the afternoon I may feel like eating actual food but that feeling goes away around five o'clock.

I made myself a nice "sustainable environment" fish stew today. One of my "comfort" foods. It seems to be working.